No More Tears – #R2BC #WellbeingWednesday

By | January 8, 2015

I’m a crier, always have been.

Being a SN parent you can sometimes get overcome by emotions: the meetings, endless meetings when your child is treated as a budget figure and not an individual; the appointments and all the admin, chasing things up, getting a prescription before meds run out and forms, all the forms.

And support isn’t immediately to hand, you have to seek it out. Sometimes you find it, more than often you don’t. It all makes for a rather exhausting time.

In November 2014, I started to get concerned that I was feeling more down than up, a lot of the time. Anything would bring on tears, homework not being done willingly, the cr*ptop laptop not working for said homework and the children squabbling.

I finally plucked up courage to see a doctor and – I knew I would – cried during the appointment. I’ve never slept properly either so it felt like everything had built up over the last couple of years.

The doctor prescribed some sleeping tablets, as an interim, sent me off for a load of tests (an MOT, if you like) and wanted to see me in a fortnight.

At the next appointment, the test results were back, I’m fine physically but emotionally a bit kn*ckered. We discussed anti-depressants and I was given a prescription to take if I wished, with the assurance that I didn’t have to take them but if I did, I might start to feel brighter.

I researched the tablets, took note of the side effects and umm-ed and aah-ed for a week, still not feeling great, still crying once or twice a day at the slightest thing – a positive or negative/forgotten something/general pre-Christmas stress.

And then the children were squabbling the day before the end of term. I cried and then thought “I shouldn’t feel like this all the time, I don’t want to feel like this anymore” and took a AD tablet.

That was on 18th December and I haven’t cried since. In fact I’ve laughed more.

There have been side effects, which I expected and have been assured today by the GP won’t be for much longer; sleep has gone back to being atrocious but I’m feeling brighter and a strange nausea type feeling (overcome with sugar-free gum). These should be remedied in the next couple of weeks. I can cope with that. Goodness knows I’ve coped with a lot more.

I’ve never been a tablet taker, I’d rarely take anything for a bad headache and have neglected my emotional health at the expense of caring for my children.

It took a lot to make that initial GP appointment but I’m glad I did. I have a review with the GP in six weeks, she seems happy with progress. I feel so better (nausea aside), I have more energy and life seems fun again.

And that’s how it should be, isn’t it.

Wellbeing Wednesday

Please link up with any wellbeing posts below. I took a break from the linky for reasons above but back to fortnightly now ๐Ÿ™‚



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16 Comments

Kate Holmes on 8th January 2015 at 8:38 pm.

Very pleased you are feeling better. It is just chemicals after all nothing about us as worthwhile human beings with lots to offer. Proud of you – adventures ahead

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Jeannette on 9th January 2015 at 11:27 am.

Thank you Kate, adventures are indeed ahead, for us both ๐Ÿ™‚

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Graham Kaye-Taylor on 8th January 2015 at 8:45 pm.

Great to have you back. Well done for seeking out that little bit of help that you needed. We have a tough gig as SN parents, and can be hard to reach out.

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Jeannette on 9th January 2015 at 11:26 am.

Thanks Graham, we do indeed, life’s too short to spend it down, thank you for linking up ๐Ÿ™‚

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cherylp59 on 8th January 2015 at 9:22 pm.

Well done you, you’ve taken a huge step and you needed to be very brave to do it – here’s to a happier 2015, great to have you back xxx

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Jeannette on 9th January 2015 at 11:25 am.

Thanns Cheryl, lovely to have here too. I’ll write something separate diet-wise and link up x

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LakesSingleMum on 8th January 2015 at 9:51 pm.

its a big step but its obviously been a good one so far, here is hoping that 2015 sees you on the up

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Jeannette on 9th January 2015 at 11:24 am.

Thank you, I think we will. Lots of plans being made but at my own pace ๐Ÿ™‚

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xOjox on 8th January 2015 at 10:02 pm.

I’m so glad you decided to go with the tablets. It doesn’t have to be long term, just give yourself time xxx

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Jeannette on 9th January 2015 at 11:24 am.

Thank you lovely, once this “bleurgh” feeling has gone, I’ll feel tip-top I’m sure xx

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Anne on 9th January 2015 at 10:53 am.

I’m glad you are feeling better, my view is that depression is just like any other illness and it needs treating, there’s no shame in seeking help. xx

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Jeannette on 9th January 2015 at 11:23 am.

Thank you, same here. It took me a while to pluck up the courage to make the initial visit, but I’m glad I did x

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Michelle Ashmore on 9th January 2015 at 2:22 pm.

Sorry to hear what you’ve been going through but pleased to hear the tablets are working ๐Ÿ™‚ xx

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Jeannette on 9th January 2015 at 6:47 pm.

Thanks lovely, final (hopefully) check up on Monday and then onwards and upwards. Happy New Year x

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Looking for Blue Sky on 12th January 2015 at 11:06 am.

I don’t think any of us special needs parents should worry about needing a bit of medical help to cope with things! I succumbed nearly 2 years ago, and it has made a difference, glad it has for you too x

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Jeannette on 20th January 2015 at 4:30 pm.

Thank you lovely, they have definitely made a difference, feel a lot better x

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