Wellbeing and me – Weds 27th May 2015

By | May 27, 2015

It’s been another relaxed day here, so I’m going to go off track a bit and update on my wellbeing – something a bit overdue.

Those who’ve read my posts for a while, will remember that towards the end of 2014 I was feeling very down and exhausted.  The last few years of school battles, T’s high functioning diagnosis and day-to-day life was wearing me down.  I had no energy, wasn’t sleeping, was reliant on chocolate just to get through the day.  

I had enough of crying everyday over little things (like, for example, a homework refusal), I plucked up courage and went to the doctors.  I’m not ashamed to say that I cried in that consulting room and through my tears, asked for help sleeping (my brain was continuously ticking over and wouldn’t relax) and how I could lift my mood.  I was offered anti-depressants but it took me until mid-January to decide that I would give them a try.  My doctor sent me off for a whole range of physical tests and also referred me to Talking Therapies (an online service), which I much preferred as opposed to sitting in a group.

The Talking Therapies started in January and was in the form of modules covering different topics (such as overcoming negative thoughts, boosting self esteem etc), there was also a generic questionnaire to fill in every time I logged on, asking about how I was feeling/sleeping/interacting etc.

I’ve been signed off from Talking Therapies now and received a letter today, with a table showing my Anxiety and Depression scores at the start and now:

 

The score of “2” for now is probably because I’m still not eating properly (or at the time sleeping properly) since I got smiley and overcome a huge phobia.

So, how am I now? Well, have a look…

   
 

I’m smiling, I’m happy.  I’m doing at least 10k steps (with a lovely Fitbit group) per day and …. and …. and I’m hoping that I have a place in next year’s London Marathon, to raise funds for the National Autistic Society.  If I don’t get a place, I’ll raise funding with half marathons.  I’ve signed up for a gym and I’ll happily chat to people behind me in the queue in shops.   In fact T told me off for smiling too much a couple of weeks ago!

Just like as if a negative snowball of events can overpower you (ie a snowball rolling down a hill, getting bigger and bigger) so a positive “snowball” has encompassed me.  It’s contagious too, because I’m happier, we all are.

It was a difficult decision to see the doctor six months ago and it was totally my decision (it had to be) and I’m glad I did.

I don’t recognise myself from before.   Externally I’m not that different (leaner and a bit smiley) but inside I’m happy, very.  Knowing I have a clean bill of health helps too.

This time last year I was panicking away because I was a finalist in the Brilliance in Blogging awards and I’d have to meet people I’d only communicated with online before.  I couldn’t go for the whole shebang so literally was there for two hours and ran away at the end.  This year I’m not a finalist (I didn’t canvass, there wasn’t an appropriate category and didn’t expect to be) and I’m going for the whole thing and can’t wait to see blogging friends! 

All good eh?
 

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xOjox on 28th May 2015 at 9:55 am.

I love this post, I really do. Haven’t we come a long way, this year. I really can’t wait to see you, at Brit Mums, you and Kate, are the main reasons I haven’t backed out (plus the hubby is coming, so the break will be wonderful) xxx

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Jeannette on 28th May 2015 at 9:59 am.

We sure have, I’m so proud of us three, we’re all getting there in our own way, in our own time.
Am really looking forward to seeing you and Kate too xx

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sarah Lea on 28th May 2015 at 6:39 pm.

Ohhhh way to go on the 10k steps! I’m trying to do the same too! I have a fitbug 🙂 Glad you’re feeling happier. This is a great post. xx

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Jeannette on 27th November 2015 at 9:37 am.

Thank you x

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Looking for Blue Sky on 29th May 2015 at 1:39 pm.

Such a lovely happy post, and hopefully you’ll feel even happier after the BiBs night out x

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Jeannette on 27th November 2015 at 9:37 am.

It was good to get there and put faces to names x

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LakesSingleMum on 29th May 2015 at 10:52 pm.

So glad your life is looking up x

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Jeannette on 27th November 2015 at 9:36 am.

It’s so much better, thanks 🙂

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Post 40 Bloggers on 31st May 2015 at 2:20 pm.

Way to go. Can’t wait to meet up at BritMums. Mx

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Jeannette on 27th November 2015 at 9:36 am.

It was great to meet you too x

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